i’ve been feeling so sentimental lately
jk, it started last year
but i can’t deal with the fact that these people who’ve been in my life
for 4 years
won’t be anymore after we graduate
like i’m not friends with everyone in my senior class
but the thought of attending school with them
for 8 hours a day for 4 years
saddens me because we’ve been in each other’s lives for a long time
we’ve gone through a lot
we’ve seen a lot
we know a lot about each other
& i have 1 year, just 1 year
to really spend time with these people before we all separate
but i’ll have to say,
i’m really gonna miss the first best friend i made in grade 8
our friendship cut short
but i honestly wish we could be friends again, just for this year
because i highly doubt i’ll ever see you again
after this high school thing is done
it would honestly make my senior year if we were at least talking again
but i could only do so much to make amends
one cannot lift a piano on one side
without the help of another to carry the other side
what if i told you that i’ve liked you since grade eight
I just want you guys to know
Whatever the future gives us,
Wherever it places us in the world; accomplishing our goals,
raising our families;
I will never forget you all,
You guys changed my life.
I’ll never forget any of you.
We will always be a family,
Regardless if we’re close or not,
We are a family.
You don’t just walk out & come back out of nowhere okay.
You can only hide your true feelings for a certain amount of time.
I’m at my breaking point, shit.
i just can’t like you ..
we’ll both just end up hurt.
The only thing that breaks me inside is the thought of what if we hadn’t fallen apart. We’d still be here together, making memories.
I find it weird how @ohayitswinnie & I spent every night during one of our winter breaks, tiny chatting with a handful of you guys .. Then I find it awkward when one of you guys come up on my dashboard .. Except for Kristy, Kristy’s good
Okay fine, you guys are friends.
But if you change her even just one bit, you’re done
Come back to me when you learn how to treat others with respect
It’s just so … Unexpected & unbelievable. I feel so disappointed & stunned, I just can’t believe you right now. I expected more from you, but I guess this goes to show that maybe we shouldn’t be.
There’s no way I’m graduating & leaving without telling people how I feel about some of them. I’m not carrying these feelings with me throughout my whole entire life in post-secondary. I’m leaving it with them & with this school.
Damn. I tricked myself into believing that I miss you, but it’s not you that I miss. What I miss are the memories we had before. So FU for giving me so much to remember.
She appeared in my dreams once again, this has been the fourth time in a row.
Is there something my subconscious is not telling me ?
Do I really actually like her even though I keep denying it ?
Today’s the day when my world starts to crumble. There goes the genuine happiness I had; the happiness that gives me the motivation to get through each day.